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Jul. 14th, 2005 @ 11:27 am
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So the other day I was thinking about summer so far ... the perks and the downfalls.
I've decided that overall I'm more happy this summer than during last school year.
I just went away, I'm working, I see my friends all of the time ... not bad!
The only bad thing that reminds me of the school year is my "boy drama!"
So, things were going well but since friday or saturday I have been questioning myself ... a lot.
People have been warning me about him and asking me to be cautious in what I do.
Granted ... they are warning me as friends ... they don't just want to sabotage my relationship but their warnings and pessimistic thinking is causing me to question the great relationship I thought I had.
Now, this is what screwed me up during the year with john and I can't have that happen again so I'm trying to put their thoughts in the back of mind.
All I need is for this boy to come out and say that I'm the girl he's telling me about ... the secret girl that he is so crazy about.
That would take away all of my worries and put me at ease.
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Jul. 5th, 2005 @ 11:49 am
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What about you?
Bold all the ones that apply to you. [i'm gonna make them all caps because I don't know how to do bold in ehre lol]
01. I HAVE A CELL PHONE.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I LOVE TO SHOP.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra.
07. I love beer.
08. I HAVE MORE THAN A COUPLE EMBARRASSING MEMORIES.
09. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT LIP GLOSS.
10. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MUSIC.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months
12. I spend money I don't have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I GET ANNOYED EASILY.
16. I EVENTUALLY WANT KIDS.
17. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
18. I AM A PERSON.
19. My first kiss was when I was 18.
20. I start film school in February.
21. I LOVE TAKING PICTURES.
22. I HATE(DISLIKE) GIRLS WHO ARE FAKE.
23. I CAN BE MEAN WHEN I WANT TO.
24. MY DREAMS ARE BIZARRE.
25. One of my close friends is gay.
26. I have way too many purses.
27. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
28. I usually dress how I feel that day
29. I LOVE 'SEX AND THE CITY'.
30. SOMETIMES I CRY FOR ALMOST NO REASON.
31. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ARE LATE.
32. I PROCRASTINATE.
33. I love winter.
34. I HAVE TOO MANY CLOTHES FOR MY CLOSET/DRESSER.
35. I LOVE TO SLEEP.
36. I WISH I WERE SMARTER.
37. I'm afraid of flying.
38. I hate drama.
39. I AM ADDICTED TO THE OC.
40. I love my hair.
41. I never fight with my parents.
42. I love the beach.
43. I have never had the chicken pox.
44. I'm excited for the future.
45. I CAN'T CONTROL MY EMOTIONS.
46. I can't wait till New Year's.
47. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
48. I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
49. CHRISTMAS IS MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY.
50. I CAN BE VERY INSECURE SOMETIMES.
51. I HAVE NEVER BROKEN A BONE.
52. I HATE RACIST PEOPLE.
53. I hate my computer.
54. I LOVE GUYS THAT PLAY GUITAR.
55. I STATE THE OBVIOUS.
56. I'M A HAPPY PERSON.
57. I LOVE TO DANCE.
58. I HATE CLEANING MY ROOM.
59. I tend to get jealous very easily.
60. I LOVE CUTE UNDERWEAR.
61. I LOVE JOHN MAYER. [OMG!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS ON HERE LOL]
62. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
63. I WANT TO GO TO GREECE.
64. I DON'T LIKE TO STUDY FOR TESTS.
65. I love God.
66. I am too forgiving.
67. I have a horrible sense of direction.
68. I love(d) high school.
69. I HAVE A TALENT OF SWEET TALKING MY WAY OUT OF THINGS.
70. I'm a daddy's girl.
71. I LOVE KISSES ON THE FOREHEAD.
72. I love the color pink.
73. I love to sew.
74. I have green eyes.[ sometimes ]
75. I love the Olsen Twins.
76. I played soccer for 14 years. ...no only 7 years
77. I BECOME STRESSED EASILY.
78. I HATE LIARS.
79. I LOVE COMFY SWEATPANTS. [THE ACTUAL WORDING WAS LIKE COMFY SWEATPANTS BUT I LOVE THEM LOL]
80. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
81. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
82. I LOVE MY FAMILY.
83. I HATE NEEDLES.
84. I AM A PERFECTIONIST
85. I ALWAYS WANTED TO LEARN TO PLAY THE DRUMS.
86. I AM STILL A VIRGIN.
87. I would love to have my own fashion line.
88. I CAN BE QUITE SELFISH.
89. I still act like a little kid.
90. I DON'T LIKE DISHONESTY.
91. I LOVE PICTURES.
92. I LOVE MUSIC.
93. I WISH I WERE MROE MOTIVATED WHEN IT COMES TO SCHOOL.
94. I LOVE GETTING STUFF IN THE MAIL.
95. I HAVE A PROBLEM LETTING GO OF PEOPLE.
96. I hate the feeling of being alone.
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Jul. 4th, 2005 @ 12:06 pm
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THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1.Needles
2.getting caught in a wave and not being able to get up
3.Spiders
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1.Tina
2.Kelsey
3.Work people
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1.John Mayer
2.Relaxing
3.Magazines
THREE JOBS I WANT TO HAVE:
1.Wedding Planner
2.Magazine Writer
3.Perfect Mom
THREE BOOKS I LOVE:
1.I Do But I Don't
2.Harry Potter lmao
3.Shopaholic (all of them)
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1.when people don't use correct grammer
2.when people tell secrets
3.when people are annoying
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1.a letter from craig
2.lamp
3.scanner
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1.talking to evan
2.updating this silly thing
3.rushing
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1.get married (preferably to john mayer) and have a good marriage
2.write a book
3.be successful
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1.dance
2.write
3.give good advice
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1.i hate questions like this
2.because then i feel cocky
3.so i'm just not gonna answer
THREE FAMOUS PEOPLE I'D LIKE TO MEET:
1.JOHN
2.CLAYTON
3.MAYER
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1.Sing
2.Cook
3.Relax
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1.John Mayer
2.Jack Johnson
3.Anything Broadway =)
TOP THREE PLACES I'd LIKE TO LIVE:
1.New
2.York
3.City
TOP THREE PLACES I'd LIKE TO TRAVEL TO:
1.London
2.Paris
3.Greece
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1.Chicken Fingers
2.Mashed Potatoes
3.Reese's Pieces
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1.Arizona
2.Green
3.Tea
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
1.Clarissa Explains it all
2.My Brother and Me (that's the show we were talking about roselle)
3.All That
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Okay if you are reading this go down and read the previous entry because they go together ... i just didn't ahve time to write it all!
Okay so the travel agent told us that we would be settled and on the bech by 2:00 ... we didn't even get into our room until 3:30. We asked for 4 double beds: 2 for kelsey's family and then 2 for our family. Kelsey's family got the 2 double beds and we ot 1 king size bed. So we called down to the main lobby and ended up with 1 king size bed, 1 pull out couch and 1 roll away bed - it sucked. Every day the maid would come in and do nothing with the pull out couch or roll away and just make up the king size bed so we had to clean the room ourselves which sucked.
Anyway we got dressed and went down to the beach. It was so beautiful - white sand and crystal clear water! We got dressed for dinner and went to a restaurant called Arizona's. It was a tex-mex place and the selection on the menu wasn't large. In between dinner and dessert I saw this extremely hott guy come in and sit down at the table next to us. We kind of checked each other out at the same time and it was extremely obvious so we just smiled at each other and did our own thing. Then Kelsey and I wanted to know what something was so we went on the stage type area to check it out. He was like dodging around poles to look at me and point me out to my friends. I know its kind of demeaning or whatever but it made me feel good lol
For dessert kelsey and I had this amazing cake that we stuffed our faces in!!!!! Then we left and i left my hott guy =(
Every morning we went to a breakfast buffet and had fruit and ceral and every afternoon we spent our time lounging in the ocean or at the pool bar lol so i'l just tell you what happened at night.
damn it ... i have to get ready for work again ... more later
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So I'm finally home from Turks and Caicos. I have SO much to say but I want to talk about the recital first ...
Two weeks ago was my second to last recital. =( It was amazing though. I actually think it was one of the best years. We had the opening number to 42nd street with original broadway choreography. That was by far my favorite dance. Unfortunately we'll NEVER do it again =( Then there was fever which I'm obsessed with the dance but I'm probably obsessed witht he teacher a little more lol and then there was mary's tap dance which was so much fun even though I managed to mess up the same part in every show. Tara's dance team number went well ... i don't think there were many screw ups by anyone. Tara said it was the best time we ever did it. Everyone loved Miss Pat's ballet which I was surprsied because i didn't think it was that good. Miss Col's numbers were great as always: Lion King and Wicked.
okay ... back to Turks and Caicos ...
So on Friday night I just stayed up because we had to be ready by 2am so I was like what's the point of going to bed. I had some online date seesions as corrine likes to call them and then I spent the rest of the night watching Sex and The City Season 2 lol At 2:30 the limo driver came to pick us up. We got to the JFK around 3:20. Tina, Kels, Stever and Connor got there a little while after us. We got on line and went through the luggage thing then had to go through only one security check. It wasn't bad at all. I was exhausted for being up so long but the excitement took over and I started to get hyper. Kels and I had fun on the plane ride there.
We got to Atlanta around 7:00 and then we had a 3 hour layover. Since we had been up forever the last thing we wanted was breakfast food so we went to wendy's and got chciken fingers and french fries. It was delicious lol. We finally met up with everyone and went to our gate. There was huge windows right in front of seat and then sun was coming right in so I put my pillow on the ground and layed down. I don't think i feel asleep but if I did it was only for 15 or 20 minutes max. When we got to the gate to give our tickets they stopped my dad and told him that he couldn't get on. He made the flight but he was the last one to board. He said he couldn't get on the flight because they "flagged" our luggage at the airport and they needed to tell us. We got Turks and Caicos around 1:30 in the afternoon (after almost 12 hours of traveling!!) The lines there to get through customs took at least an hour and then we had to find our luggage and take a 10 minute shuttle to the Resort. When we finally got there they offered us drinks as soon as we got out of the car. It was so fun! There was tropical music playing and everyone was in a good mood.
man i have to go get ready for work ... more later ... i have 6 more days to explain lol
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So I am in what I call "The Official Love/Hate Week" which others might call rehearsal week. Every afternoon I need to drive half an hour to Stony Brook for about a 17 day rehearsal and then drive half an hour home every night. I normally LOVE rehearsal week. Being under the lights for hours on end, wearing full make up and beautiful costumes while a full auditorium stares at you. I absolutely LOVE it. Unfortunately last night wasnt so fun.
Have you ever felt like helping people just isn't worth it. Ya know what, talking about this again is just bringing back all my anger. I'm so fucking pissed ...
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 11:15 am
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Hi. I have been meaning to update but haven't had the time. I'm finished with my project in drawing so I am going to update in the 35 remaining minutes in the period.
Last weekend I worked anywhere from 9 to 11 hours a day. This past week has been extremely busy with dance also. Every day I would go to school for 6 hours than dance team for two or three hours and then I would have dance anywhere from 2 to 4 hours. I was so exhausted!
Friday night was prom. Me, Ashlyn and Corrine had spent the whole previous week worrying about every little detail which everyone else seemed to just "brush off their shoulders."
Friday morning Ash drove me to school and then we cut out right after 8th to get to Sayville for our 3:00 appointment. Ashlyn was taken right away for her appointment but I had to wait 40 minutes before someone even started on me. I gave the stylist a picture of what I wanted to do. She did it, not as well as the other "updo" girl but enough to stay up for the whole prom.
I went home and got completely ready in about an hour. Before I left for pictures Grandma, Grandma, Aunt Debbie and my cousin Matty came over for pictures at my house. We took some pictures out front where cars drove by and either honked or stared! =( ew! My heels started to sink into the grass so I decided it was time to leave and head out to Ashlyn's.
I was the first girl to arrive but almost all of the boys were there. We took what felt like a thousand pictures and then me, ash, dayle and corrine decided to stuff our faces with food while the mommies and daddies took pictures of us!!
The limo was beautiful but extremely cramped. The driver took us around the block a few times so that we were "fashionably late" The weather was gross and it was drizzling when we got out of the limo. When we walked in ms Connelly was greeting everyone and it was such a pleasant surprise. I had no idea she was going to be there.
I had so much fun dancing with Corrine, Ash, Dayle, Robbie, Matt, Danny, and Pat. We were togetehr the whole night. Corrine and I went to go get food and by the time we got it, everything ws freezing cold. After dinner the prom started to suck a little so we left a little early.
After, we took the limo back to Robbies and all changed so we could go out East. I realized the only shoes I had were my 4 inch prom heels so Jessie let me borrow her old navy flips for the night. Everyone started drinking in the limo and some people [cough cough] are EXTREMELY UNBEARABLE when the are drunk.
When we got to the diner I sat with ash, corrine, ket and craig. I ordered fries and ashlyn ordred a milkshake. I was so excited to go to the diner because all I had all day was a piece of pizza and i was starving. Unfortunately the waitress never gave me my fries so i never got to eat because i hate taking food from people.
Ashlyn got sick in the diner so I spent the night taking care of her. I didn't mind though - i love taking care of people ... it makes me feel important and needed i guess. We got back to Robbie's and I took Ash upstairs and we slept in Robbies room so that everyone could be loud and drunk away from us.
I woke up the next morning still extremely tired and ashlyn still extremely sick so we decided to go home around 9:30. I had to go get food on my way home because I was so hungry.
I spent the rest of the day lounging around in sweats watching sex and the city and sleeping.
The next morning I had to be up at 6 to go to work at 7. Unfortunately I didnt drag myself out of bed until 6:40. I had just enough time to do nothing! Work was really busy yesterday and corrine and i messed up so bad (i hope stephanie doesnt get mad at us corrine!)
After work I clenaed up, did my take home chem test and then went ot Ms. Connelly's for dinner with Sam, kate, Tina, Chelsea and Kelly. Sam and I got a little lost on the way home. We ended up on the road where the Amityville horror house was. I must admit - I was a little creeped out.
Anyway that was my life for the past few days. Tonight i have to go home, do my homework and get ready for the fashion show tonight at Gateway playhouse. The show starts at 7 but I believe I need to be there at 6:30 ugh.
Wow ... i finished with 12 minutes left in the period. Now I need to bullshit for the rest of the time. wish me luck!
Love Love Love Lauren
<3 Im infatuated by you <3
Jun. 6th, 2005 @ 12:52 pm
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HHHHIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to get ready for dance in a few so I guess this is going to be quick. I hope everyone had a good Memorial Day! I had to work ... a lot. But I had fun so it doesnt really matter. I really want to update ya'll on whats been going on in my life but I have been, and will continue to be, EXTREMELY BUSY!! After prom I promise I'll update! This week I have kickline tryouts along with 2 or 3 hours of dance each night [Jeromy this week girls ... yum!] Prom is Friday. I just got my nails done a couple hours ago so typing is a little awkward [sp?] lol well i must be off ...
love, love, love ...
...laur --
<3 I've got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do <3
May. 31st, 2005 @ 07:22 pm
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Fill this out in the comment section of the blog ;)
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
May. 21st, 2005 @ 08:33 pm
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Hi. So yesterday was my first day back to work. It was good to see everyone again as it was so boring sitting there alone the whole night. I can't wait until its two girls on every shift so im not by myself. I hope I can work with Corrine or Jackie. I don't know the new girl and I don't think Emily likes me.
I missed a big opening rehearsal last night which I was very upset about. I love Mary's classes and I would have died to have a 3 hour rehearsal but that didn't happen ... tear! lol Nayway, no dance tonight which is good because I can relax.
Last night I was talking to Evan and he was like I haven't seen you since the summer what interesting things have you been up to? I didn't have one good thing to tell him ... how sad. I need to make my life more interesting. Any suggestions?
Until tomorrow ...
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Name: Lauren Michelle
Birthday: July 27
Birthplace: St. Charles
Current Location: Patchouge =(
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'5" or 5'6"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: I'm a mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today: Black Old Navy Flip Flops
Your Weakness: My self esteem
Your Fears: Spiders and needles
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepp and xtra cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Fall In Love ... oh wait ... have i done that already this year?!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: need ... more ... sleep ...
Your Best Physical Feature: i hate when people compliment themselves so im not gonna answer this question
Your Bedtime: 11
Your Most Missed Memory: being carefree
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonalds or Burger King: both
Single or Group Dates: either
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: no
Do you Sing: no ... unfortunately
Do you Shower Daily: no ... haha! of course i do silly!!!!
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: no
Do you get Motion Sickness: not really
Do you think you are Attractive: no ... actually i can have moments
Are you a Health Freak: nope
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes!
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: no
Ever been called a Tease: no
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: in my sleep when im super old (that's a sick question!)
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a sports/entertainment/event manager
What country would you most like to Visit: not sure
In a Boy..
Favorite Eye Color: doesn't amtter
Favorite Hair Color: doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair: i usually go for short haired guys but long hair is very sexy
Height: TALL!!
Weight: some muscles are always nice
Best Clothing Style: ae/af
Number of Drugs I have taken: 0
Number of CDs I own: ?
Number of Piercings: 2
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of things in my Past I Regret: the list goes on but i do believe everything happens for a reason
If I were a month I would be: september
If I were a day of the week I would be: thursday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:34
If I were a planet I would be: saturn
If I were a sea animal I would be: dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: south
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: sofa
If I were a sin I would be: lust
If I were a liquid I would be: wine
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: palm
If I were a bird, I would be: blue jay
If I were a tool, I would be: hammer
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a bouquet of different things
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: stormy
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: i dont know names of mythical creatures
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: drums
If I were an animal, I would be: monkey
If I were a color, I would be: tickle me pink or macaroni and cheese
If I were an emotion, I would be: love
If I were a vegetable, I would be: broccoli
If I were a sound, I would be: a heart beat
If I were a car, I would be: bmw
If I were a song, I would be: Great Indoors - JM
If I were a book, I would be written by: Sophie Kinsella
If I were a food, I would be: a comfort food like chocolate or ice cream
If I were a place, I would be: a wedding chapel
If I were a material, I would be: cashmere
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: vanilla
If I were an object, I would be: a ring
If I were a body part I would be: belly button
If I were a facial expression I would be: smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: lunch =)
If I were a cartoon character I would be: that girl bunny from tiny tunes ... babs?
If I were a shape I would be a: a circle
If I were a number I would be: 13
Age in 2012: 24
Band: John Mayer, Jack Johnson, Josh Kelley, DMB, Ben Folds 5
Choice Of Meat: Steak
Dream Date: Going to a John Mayer concert in Central Park then walking back to his apartment on a warm summer night and ordering Chinese take out and watching a funny movie while we eat
Excites You: Being on stage in front of a thousand people
Favorite Food: potatoes
Greatest Gift: ive never gotten a particular gift that has stood out above all of the rest
Happiest Day Of Your Life: My sweet 16 or any of the john concerts
Internal Conflicts: hmm ...
Jealous: hate it!
Kool Aid: dane cook
Love: wnat it badly ...
Most Valuable Thing You Own: mutsy
Name: Lauren Michelle Elizabeth Alevas
Outfit: Burgundy AF sweater, old navy carpis and flip flops
Pizza Topping: pepperoni
Question I Want To Ask: Why can't I think of witty answers to these questions?
Roots: all over the place
Sport To Watch: basketball
TV Show: friends and gilmore girls and sex and the city
View From The Window: im not near a window
Weather: sunny and nice
Yesterday's Best Meal: dinner for my cousin's 12th birthday at his house
Zodiac sign: Leo
NUMBER
# of times you have been in love? 1
# of times you have had your heart broken? 1
# of hearts you have broken? no idea ... hopefully none
# of girls you have kissed? 0
# of boys you have kissed? 3
# of drugs taken illegally? 0
# of people you would classify as true, could trust with your life type friends? 6
# of people you consider your enemies? 1
# of times your name has appeared in the newspaper? not sure ... a couple for dance and stuff
# of scars on your body? 0
# of things in your past that you regret? i have regrets but everyhting happens for a reason
FAVORITE
+ disney movie = little mermaid
+ word =
+ nickname = i don't really have any but id like one so think of one ;) most people call me lau though
+ eye color = blue
+ flower = Day Lilly
+ piercing = my ears i guess
+ actor = Paul Rudd
+ actress = Courtney Cox
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
+ pretty = No
+ funny = Sometimes
+ hot = No
+ friendly = Yes
+ amusing = Hopefully
+ ugly = No
+ loveable = Yes
+ caring = Yes
+ sweet = Most Of The Time and always to strangers lol
*5 Things You Are Wearing*
1. Underwear
2. Bra
3. Shirt
4. Pants
5. Shoes
*5 Things You Can See*
1. Black Lamp
2. Scanner
3. Moniter
4. Keyboard
5. Printer
*5 Things You Are Doing Right Now*
1. Typing
2. Singing
3. Thinking
4. Changing up my itunes
5. checking my away message
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. chicken
2. macaroni
3. cookie
4. pretzel
5. strawberries
*5 things you did so far today*
1. eat
2. type
3. write
4. laugh
5. smile
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. Kanye West lol
2. cars
3. lawnmowers
4. wind
5. keyboard
*5 colors you can see*
1. black
2. blue
3. orange
4. green
5. white
*5 thoughts in your head*
1. "Work it out ..."
2. I hope he's okay
3. Im tired
4. I need to talk to tiffany
5. Brandon's in a bad mood
*10 people that rock your socks*
1. John
2. Marylin
3. Ashlyn
4. Miss Colleen
5. Jennifer Aniston
6. Tara
7. Kelsey
8. My Grandpa
9. My Aunt
10. <3
*10 things you love the most about your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush*
1. Ha
2. Ha
3. Ha
4. Ha
5. Ha
6. I
7. Don't
8. Have
9. A
10. Boyfriend
*10 things you would like to do in your lifetime*
1. Get married
2. Have a big family
3. Keep my best friend until one of us dies lol
4. own my own business
5. live in manhattan
6. write a book
7. meet john mayer <3
8. Have a serious boyfriend before I leave high school
9. Make a name for myself
10. Have a kick ass time in college
[if i do say so myself that is a damn good list]
*10 cds you're listening to at the moment*
1. John
2. Jack
3. Ben
4. Dave
5. Celion
6. Chantal
7. Norah
8. Michael
9. Josh
10. Stevie
*10 famous people you would have sex with/think are hot :)*
1. John Mayer
2. Paul Rudd
3. Adam Brody
4. Jared Padalecki
5. Chad Michael Murray
6. Ashton Kutcher {only in A Lot Like Love though ... im not normally attracted to him}
7. Jack Johnson
8. Michael Buble ... lol ash and shan
9. Matthew Perry
10. Heath Ledger
*10 names you like*
Top 5 Girls Names
1. Tara
2. Monica
3. Elizabeth
4. Evangeline
5. Charlotte
Top 5 Boys Names In No Particular Order
1. Ryan
2. Joshua
3. Daniel
4. Andrew
5. Parker
*10 Objects In Your Room That You Love*
1. My Pillow
2. My DVD Player
3. My John Posters from kelsey
4. My Marylin poster type thing from corrine
5. My bulliten boards!!!!
6. My photo Albums
7. My mirror
8. My closet
9. My bed
10. My high gold trophy from competition
May. 9th, 2005 @ 05:23 pm
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Last night at dance I was informed that some people read my journal every day so today I decided that I would update it so those people have something to read ... makes sense right?
I don't even know where to begin. What do you want to hear? I'll take any and all suggestions! I feel like everyday we all just go through the same motions. Some days are better than others and some are worse than others but most of the time it's just the same thing day after boring day. For instance: Every week day, my alarm goes off at 6:15 but I don't get out bed until 6:45 which gives me just enough time to do nothing because I leave for my bus at 7:11. Then I stand at the bus stop with 3 people I don't like so I just stand there in silence. Then I get on the bus and talk to Allen. When I finally get to school, after my half an hour bus ride I stand there and complain with my friends that I want to go home already ... they concure [sp?]. Then I go throughout the day hardly talking because I only have friends in two periods. The end of the day is usually a little better though. I wait for Allen at his locker and then we go home together. Sometimes we talk the whole time and sometimes we leave each otehr alone to read or listen to music. When I get home I eat whatever I canfind in the house then either go on the computer or sleep until I have to get ready for dance. When I get home dance I tell myselfevery night that I'm going to go to bed right away but don't fall asleep for another hour or two. Then I wake up and do it all over ... every day!!!!!!!
Going to dance every day is different though. Tap is the only that makes Mondays good. mary is one of my favorite teachers and I love going to her class and learning her choreography because her numbers are so pfg ;) Tuesday I hate ... i adore Miss Pat but her class is so boring and tedious. Wednesdays are okay. Pointe is truly annoying when the girls don't pay attention but its usually fun. Ballet is all choreography so I like that. Dnace Team was fun but now we will just run our dance so it's nice when we get the night off. I love thursdays because we have jazz with Jeromy and he has a style that I am good at. Miss Marissa's style doesn't thrill me because im not great at it. Then we have a break where we all get fat at McDonald's and Bucci's and then we have lyrical with miss col!!!! Friday is both good and bad. I like hanging out with Tara for two hours every week because we talk about everything but the kids i teach are so horrible this year. They all behave terribly.
As much I would love to go on I have to go to dance. Good luck to everyone taking the SATs in the morning!
Until Tomorrow ...
...Laur <3
May. 6th, 2005 @ 04:01 pm
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I haven't updated in awhile and I really should have because a lot has happened. Since the last time, I feel as though my life has changed in both a positive and negative way. I know this will sound corny but I feel like in the past two or three weeks I have learned a lot.
The second weekend in April, Stage Door competed at the local "Ticket To Broadway" competition. Out of the 5 numbers that I took, I got three high golds and two golds. We were happy with the high golds but the golds were a disappointment. Stage Door is an amazing studio but the numbers we choreograph aren't competition style so I often question why we waste our time and money to go to a competition that we will always lose at? Does that make sense to you? I didn't think so. Our teachers know our numbers are great. Our parents know our numbers are great. The 3000 audience members that watch our recital every year know that our numbers are great. We know our numbers are great. Why do we need to perform in front of a group of strangers who only care about our money to feel like we have accomplished something? Why do we care what 4 judges think when what really matters is that there are 3000 people who adore us!
That brings me to my next "revelation." why DO people care what others think? What really matters is what we think of ourselves and our actions ... right? All of my life I have been told to do things for myself and not for others. What truly matters in your own life is your ultimate happiness. Right? Even though that has been preached to me by my family and friends my whole life I never truly understood how important it was to actually do it. It is so easy to become wrapped up in what others think and it is truly horrible when it happens. For instance ...
Over the past couple months, there was one guy who had a crush on me and whom I had reciprocating feelings for [we shall call him JOHN MAYER for the purpose of not using real names!] In the beginning I didn't know him too well and wanted to get my friends opinions on him. Unfortunately none of them had too many positive things to say. Needless to say, I was unhappy with what they were telling me and decided to feel the situation out for myself. As time went on, I felt like JOHN MAYER and I got to know each other pretty well. I loved every thing about him. Nothing that anyone had said was true! We talked about the rumors I had heard and he explained all of the situations to me - none of them being a quarter as bad as people described. Unfortunately, while I liked JOHN MAYER I also had a crush on someone else. In my mind, it would not have been fair to commit to JOHN MAYER if my WHOLE heart hadn't been it in. How could someone knowingly give their heart to someone when they know a part of it belongs to someone else. Anyway, the more I started to like this boy the more I talked about him. Friends still protested and that is when I decided to keep my feelings to myself. By the time my feelings for "the other guy" subsided and I realized how ridiculous I was being about caring what other people thought it was too late. JOHN MAYER told me that he had shut his feelings off and tried to move on. He has been the only guy to truly care for me in such a long time and I lost him because of the ridiculous people in our school who are so damn unhappy with their lives that they need to make everyone else's lives miserable too!
I remember when I got my first "boyfriend" in 6th grade. I vowed to myself that I would never cry over a guy who wasn't worth my time. I thought that guys were nothing. They were disposable. If someone didn't like me I could just move onto the next. I guess before JOHN MAYER, I never had true feelings for a guy. I mean I had crushes just like everyone else but never true feelings that I will remember for a long, long time if not forever. Even people who I thought I was in love with never made me cry and deep down that made me realize that they weren't worth it. I have cried every day since the day JOHN MAYER told me he threw his feelings away. THIS GUY WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS TRULY WORTH IT! Every time I see him, talk to him, think about him all of my mistakes come rushing back to me ... why was I so stupid? Most of all, every time I see him I always wonder why I can't have a second chance. Are there really situations in life that don't give you second chances? Is that really fair ... do people get one shot for everything? Now that I have that off my chest and whole world knows my business I honestly feel better. The only thing that will make me truly happy is if I find out that he read this and wants me back. Until then it will take a long time to be truly happy again because I've never gotten my heart broken before so I don't know how to bounce back ....
Apr. 22nd, 2005 @ 09:39 pm
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If I were a month I would be: july
If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:34pm
If I were a planet I would be: neptune
If I were a sea animal I would be: a dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: north
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: bed
If I were a sin I would be: lust
If I were a liquid I would be: water
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: a palm tree
If I were a bird, I would be: blue jay
If I were a tool, I would be: drill?
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: snap drgaon
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: rain
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: a unicorn
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a drum
If I were an animal, I would be: a monkey
If I were a color, I would be: tickle me pink
If I were an emotion, I would be: cheerful
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a carrot
If I were a sound, I would be: birds chirpping
If I were a car, I would be: bmw
If I were a song, I would be: amazing
If I were a book, I would be written by: sophie kinsella
If I were a food, I would be: a brownie
If I were a place, I would be: paris
If I were a material, I would be: cashmere
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: clean
If I were an object, I would be: a stool
If I were a body part I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression I would be: laugh
If I were a subject in school I would be: lunch
If I were a cartoon character I would be: betty boop
If I were a shape I would be a: diamond
If I were a number I would be: 16
Apr. 7th, 2005 @ 04:38 pm
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Hi, I'm not sure what I want to write but I haven't updated in a week so I guess I should. I'm not even sure if people read this thing because no one ever comments but whatever ...
On Sunday, Stage door performed in the St. Patrick's Day Parade. It was really short but it rained the whole time so it was kind of gross. After, I went to my grandma's house for my mom's birthday dinner. It was pretty fun.
Whooh hooh!! No school today. Today at 4 i'm going up to the studio to rehearse my trio with tina and kels. then we are going out to dinner ... i'm really excited about that because i haven't eaten since 11:30 a.m. yesterday and I'm starving. Then we are going back to the studio for our regular classes. We get our jazz costumes tonight which I am extremely excited about. We wear little jackets, short shorts and garters ... it's like a conservative sluty costume [oh man - oxymoron!]
I'm listening to the song invisible by clay aiken ... its kind of creepy ... "if i was invisible then i could just watch you in your room" ew! get out!
ahh i must go to practice ... ill see you kids later
until tomorrow ...
...laur --
Mar. 24th, 2005 @ 03:01 pm
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Hey, I'm reading this AMAZING book right now, "He's Just Not That Into You". I know most of my dance girls have read it but I'm not about anyone else. If you haven't, I strongly suggest that you run to Borders and get it. It's like a female bible ... every girl should have one!! It's written by two of the writers of Sex And The City. The episode that this book stemmed from was actually on last night. It basically tells females not to "waste the pretty" on guys who really aren't that into them. I'm sure you can all tell when a guy is honestly "into you." He always manages to have time for you, always calling and hanging out with you. That's when you know he really is into you. "Don't waste the pretty" on guys you need to make excuses for. They aren't worth it. Before I read this book, people were telling me how amzing it was and how truly exhillerating [sp?] it was to have the power of being in control and not caring if a guy doesn't like you. I didn't believe any of them. I thought it was just a book, maybe I'll get a little insight out of it but that's about it. I was WRONG!!! After the first chapter I feel the sense of power that they were talking about. Let me copy a few passages from the first 20 or so pages ...
-An excuse is just a polite rejection.
-It's good for us all to remember that we don't need to scheme and plot and beg to get someone to ask us out. We're fantastic!
-When it comes to men, deal with us as we are, not how you'd like us to be.
-If a guy truly likes you, but for personal reasons he needs to take things slow, he will let you that immediately. He won't keep you guessing, because he'll want to make sure you don't get frustrated and go away.
-Guys don't mind messing up a friendship if it will lead to sex.
-Are there men that are too busy or have been through something so horrible that makes it hard for them to get involved? Yes, but there are so few of them that they should be considered urban legends.
-When a guy's into you, he lets you know it. he calls, he shows up, he wants to meet your friends, he can't keep his eyes or hands off you, and when it's time to have sex, he's more than overjoyed to oblige.
I just want all of the guys reading this to know that everything i just copied was written by a man so the point of view is not diluted in any way.
Anyway, right now I am in seven period and the bell will be ringing shortly so let me just update quickly. Last weekend, I went to competition with the Raiderettes and we took 3 first place and 1 second place trophy home!! Congrads girls!! Also, I had a piece put into an art museum in South Hampton. There was a gala on saturday [that i had to miss because i was in albany :(] The piece will up until the 26 and then it is coming down and being put into a showcase here at school. 27 high schools had pieces put into the museum and patchogue medford got the top ranked pictures!!!!! whooh hooh ... must run
Happy St. Patrick's Day!!
Until tomorrow ...
...Laur --
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Mar. 17th, 2005 @ 01:01 pm
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Hey.
I just got home from the mall a little while ago and I am totally disappointed. Have you ever fallen in love with a piece of clothing? Well I fell in love with the sexiest jeans ever but they only had large sizes left that i couldnt' fit into!!!!!!!!! I was depressed the rest of the time I was there. I only bought two bras lol grr im so mad right now.
So, we are supposed to get 8-10 more inches of snow. I've had enough until next year I think.
Last night i went with my brother to Best Buy and we were each gonna get an iPOD but of course they were sold out. I was upset last night but today I'm kinda happy we didnt get it because they came out with a enw iPOD that holds 500 more songs so I'm gonna get that one instead.
Tonight, Tian and I are sleeping at Kelsey's to choreograph a Tap trio. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I'm excited because we are all great great friends and its cool that we are doing this together but i hope we dont have clahsing opinions. Well I guess I'm gonna go
Until Tomorrow ...
Laur --
Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 02:18 pm
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Hey. I was debating whether or not I should update because I really liked my last entry and wanted people to look at it. But then I decided that I needed to move on ... right? lol anyway ...
I GOT MY PERMIT TODAY!!! ONLY PERSON WITH A PERFECT SCORE!!!!!!!!!!!
I just went driving with my mom and its hard! I was laughing so hard that I had trouble breathing lol I thought i had all of these insightful things to say but i forgot them all so i guess this entry is gonna suck oh well im gonna run maybe ill update later if my mind starts running ...
until tomorrow ...
Laur --
BTW: who keeps posting? i dont mind of course but i dont know who it is lol
Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 04:34 pm
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Hey. It's the first day of vacation and I'm both happy and sad. I'm happy because it's vacation ... obviously but I'm sad because I won't see my friends. Whenever they hang out I'm either not invited or busy so I know I won't see them until we come back on Monday - which frankly, is sad. Anyway,We had Jeromy again on Thrusday and of course it was amazing (like the songs haha!!) except my ass is so sore ... i guess from those ponche things ... or maybe from the passionate sex we had after class ... hmmm lol
I was thinking today ... I am extremely quirky. I can't drink a bottle of soda unless the label has been ripped off. I need to take the little fip things off drink cans. I need to sleep on the left side of the bed. I don't care what I'm doing if I'm listening to John Mayer. There is about 10 seconds on the John Mayer DVD that I love and i play it every night before I go to bed because ITS JUST THAT GREAT!! I cry when people I like yell at me. If I see something and I'm not sure what it says I HAVE to go back and read it. If I touch something weird with one hand I have to touch it with the other so both hands feel the same. I need to have my books in my backpack in size order otherwise its uncomfortable. I always wave with my right hand. If someone is wearing the same thing as me I have to change. I HHHAAATTTEEE when people steal food that I bought. I fucking bought it ... go buy your own shit bitch!! lol jk ... kind of
Also, I was thinking that little things make me really happy. Today I was listening to John Mayer and just listening to the music brought me back to all of his concerts that I had been to. I felt as if I was at them again. i thought of how I felt and what I said and thought. It was great!! I also get really happy when someone leaves me an unexpected text message or instant message. I love opening up this page and seeing that someone has commented. I like watching my friends do things that they love - it makes me smile. I love when my friends will randomly hug me for no reason. I love getting mail. I love when a new bodysuit arrives and I wear it to dance. I love being in the same room as Mary and Jeromy - especially when both of them are together. I love that even if I don't hang out with my friends for months the next time im with them its feels like i was with them the night before. I love reading a new book. I love when ym people magazine comes on Saturday. I love watching Friends. Sometimes I go on binges and just watch every episode from the beginning. I love hearing a song and thinking back to the time when something memorable happened during it. I love watching a movie and thinking of the people who i saw it with the first time. I love spending every Friday night with Tara laughing and gossiping. I love talking Michelle at physical therapy. I like anything that has to do with John Mayer. I love my bulliten boards in my room - they are my life. I love looking at my photo albums.
That was extremely random but whatever. Deal with it ... haha just kidding darlings!! Well i'll go ...
...Until Tomorrow
Laur --
Feb. 19th, 2005 @ 07:02 pm
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